Nukvah said:

why so upset about my relationship to Christ: it has far less an affect on you than your relationship to Christ:

Nukvah, thank you for your answer to my question. Now regarding the above sentence I don't see anyone being upset about your search for Christ.  When you are through searching you will end up in Christ's Church.  The Holy Spirit will guide you.  You are like so many people who search to find a church that agrees with what they believe, not what Christ taught. People like you are the reason there are so many denominations.

I hope you will find peace some day!