CKL wrote:
So you only sought God when you needed help? And you're telling me I don't know Jesus?


It's one thing to know all about Jesus and believe those things that you know, but it's something totally different to personally encounter the Lord Face-to-face so that you know that you know that you know that you are LOVED by the Lord and He is with us always exactly as He said He would be. Seek the Lord while He can be found, Gabs. Anyone who complains about their life as much as you do does NOT know the Lord as their Lord and Savior. Do you think Mary Magdalene continue her "Woe is me" after she met Jesus?

It is exactly as Jesus said:

"But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and His righteousness; and ALL these things shall be added unto you."
~ Matthew 6:33

All what things, Gabs?

I can see the Lord can make much use of your knowledge of Atheism if you will totally surrender your life to Him. Are you willing to be a vessel for the Master's use in this world? Are you willing to give up sin? Are you willing to do things God's Way and not your own? If so, take it to the Lord in prayer. Pound at the those doors to Heaven and don't stop till you get an answer! In the meantime, I will pray for you that you don't dig a hole so deep for yourself that you can't get out.

God bless you

"Now I beseech you, brethren, through the name of our Lord Jesus Christ, that ye all speak the same thing, and that there be no divisions among you; but that ye be perfected together in the same mind and in the same judgment." 
~ 1 Cor 1:10