Are you able to look God-ward, for His renewal?
Paul, I bet she knows better than you to not turn to someone like Siggy to be baptized so she can feel renewed like you claim you did.

God bless you

O my Jesus,
forgive us our sins,
save us from the fire of hell,
lead all souls to heaven,
especially those who are in most need of Thy mercy.
~ Fatima Prayer