A Bit of Existentialism
unique position as a self-determining agent responsible for the authenticity of his or her (our) choices”.
In this regard Father has identified himself to His “created-products”, the star-children. He specifically told Moses to tell the Hebrew children that “I am that I am” sent you to them. He could have said, “I AM Creator-God” the Source, Maker, and Doer of all things”, but He carefully chose the ID, “I Am”. He is expressing that “HE IS” all there is, and “we live and move inside His Being” (body), but He did not want to overwhelm Moses’ senses with a detailed account. Look at the word to “exist”. It means EX- out of or from me is everything that IS. To complete the word “exist”, we come to the last letter, “T”. You know that symbol. It is a “cross” referring to death. We ALL came from God! And to “live more abundantly”, we make an EXIT from DUS-T (clay) on that special day of death and we “return to sender”, namely Father-God to STAND BEFORE HIM at the Throne.
Acts 10:9 On the morrow, as they went on their journey, and drew nigh unto the city, Peter went up upon the housetop to pray about the sixth hour: 10 And he became very hungry, and would have eaten: but while they made ready, he fell into a trance, 11 And saw heaven opened, and a certain vessel descending unto him, as it had been a great sheet knit at the four corners, and let down to the earth: 12 Wherein were all manner of fourfooted beasts of the earth, and wild beasts, and creeping things, and fowls of the air. 13 And there came a voice to him, Rise, Peter; kill, and eat. 14 But Peter said, Not so, Lord; for I have never eaten any thing that is common or unclean. 15 And the voice spake unto him again the second time, What God hath cleansed, that call not thou common. 16 This was done thrice: and the vessel was received up again into heaven. 28 And he said unto them, Ye know how that it is an unlawful thing for a man that is a Jew to keep company, or come unto one of another nation; but God hath shewed me that I should not call any man common or unclean.
Psalms 22:27 All the ends of the world shall remember and turn unto the LORD: and all the kindreds of the nations shall worship before thee. 28 For the kingdom is the LORD'S: and he is the governor among the nations. 29 All they that be fat upon earth shall eat and worship: all they that go down to the dust shall bow before him: and none can keep alive his own soul. 30 A seed shall serve him; it shall be accounted to the Lord for a generation. 31 They shall come, and shall declare his righteousness unto a people that shall be born, that he hath done this.
So how old do you think you are? We exist in two unique time-zones simultaneously. There is “prison time” down here in hell, which is governed by the prison astrological clock as the earth and sun rotate in the galaxy with respect to one another. From this we derive “solar time” in 24-hour daily increments. Since the location of hell is a special position in God’s foot, we all exist on a special training stage called planet Earth. Earth orbits inside a special worm-hole and holding pen called Satan’s prison-chamber. Everything about God is TODAY. There is no tomorrow and no yesterday. If you get your mind out of focusing only on “prison time”, you will also see that we have been part of EVERLASTING DAY all along. We just exist temporarily inside Satan’s prison-chamber of hell on the “space-platform” and orbiting stage called Earth. It is still TODAY all around us as we orbit with high speed through the worm-hole of hell. God has called the location of the Earth, “my footstool”. So where we live now is like God’s basement dungeon, which holds convicted criminal EVIL SPIRITS as their stay of execution time winds down. So how old do you think you are? When did you come to EXIST? Was it on the 4th Creation Day when you emerged from Mother Wisdom’s womb, or was it when you emerged as a newborn human child on earth? If you think like a typical man using “prison time” or natural time, you will sell yourself short. I came to exist long before September 7, 1943 at 3:53 AM at St. Mary’s Mercy Hospital in Gary, IN. That information is what is on my birth certificate. However that is according to “prison-time” on that prison day! But I came “to be” long before that special moment when my earthly mother smiled and cuddled me in her arms.
It is time to get into the mind of Creator-God and discover His EXISTENTIALISM! We EXISTED in the mind of Creator-God as a PLANNED FAMILY…. before He began the creations. So we also were with our Father from the beginning as it is also said of Jesus Christ.
Psalms 139:14 I will praise thee; for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvellous are thy works; and that my soul knoweth right well. 15 My substance was not hid from thee, when I was made in secret, and curiously wrought in the lowest parts of the earth. 16 Thine eyes did see my substance, yet being unperfect; and in thy book all my members were written, which in continuance were fashioned, when as yet there was none of them.
We existed as PLANS in His mind which He was determined to create! Your name, face, gender, and family Order was determined by the Creator before He began any creation. YOU were a “blue print” on Father’s drawing board (mind). Your hairs were all numbered and your spirit-form features pre-figured. Also before doing any of this, God had to create His companion, a female counterpart to be Mother of all “the children of light”, God’s STARS. What I am showing you is, YOU ARE AS OLD AS GOD as a tiny piece of His Living-Spirit substance. He had nothing to create anything from except His own “SELF” or His spirit-body matter.
You remember how the amoeba replicates, don’t you? Creator God did something similar and ONE suddenly became TWO. This wonderful companion is “the breasted one” known as El Shaddai and Mother Wisdom. In Secrets of Enoch, She is the allegoric, “Adoil”. Jewish records also ID Her as “Zion” and “Mother Jerusalem”. Father-God introduced Himself and told Her of His PLANS. She was thrilled with the idea of being a “mom”. She and Father agreed upon a SPECIFIC number of twin pairs to replicate their glory, one male and one female made from that male’s body, Psalms 87 and Secrets of Enoch 25. All this was decided as a PLAN by these two before the creation began. A residency was planned for Mother Wisdom and Her household. It is known to us as Heaven, which is like a HUGE 12-STORY building, if you will. God did not stop at this point. He had to determine social-character for this super-huge family. How should the children respond and relate to God and Wisdom as “mom and dad”? How should the paired twins relate to one another as living sisters and brothers? So many children require communities to accommodate them. How do the children behave toward one another in community settings? These were MASSIVE PROBLEMS that the wise One had to resolve to His satisfaction before initiating and creating the FAMILY.
The “HOW” brings us to God’s skill and intelligence as Master/Teacher. God decided to educate us in desired ways of conduct by use of precept and example, comparison and contrast which employs light and darkness, good and evil, and pain and reward for added emphasis. This is a very intricate and involved scheme. He had to create opposition “tools” to be the CONTRAST to His goodness! Two non-living EVIL “puppets” were created to be the sources of NEGATIVE contrast and to supply all undesired modes on conduct that God and Wisdom DO NOT WANT EXHIBITED by their children. Lucifer and Babylon became the parents of the “powers of darkness”. God also designed every episode the children will experience in TWO STEPS when placed in the pit-prison where devils will “test them”. Every scientist must test each product he creates to learn its properties, its strengths and weaknesses. God is the FIRST SCIENTIST to employ what we now call the “scientific method” to resolve a problem. STEP-ONE occurs in Satan’s prison-chamber on the “test-stage” called Earth. When Father has gathered the desired information about each product, He withdraws each child from the proving ground of hell and brings him to Paradise for perfection. That is STEP-TWO. There Father REPAIRS all weaknesses and flaws by wearing His “Clay Master” hat. He engages each child in what He calls the “New Covenant”. Each child graduates with a certificate of approval (“well done”) and joins the general Family Reunion celebration. Every event that happens to men on this earth was PRE-PLANNED by Creator God. To make sure that nothing exceeds what He PLANNED, God “dwells in each child and walks in him” all the days he exists on earth. He micro-manages every event happening in each child’s life. Just hearing this for the first time is OVERWHELMING to some of you to the point where you might say, “UNBELIEVABLE”! Just remember this, “I AM the vine. YOU are the branches. Abide in me and I in you” for “Without me you can do nothing”. You cannot “get God out of you” any more than you can escape from your shadow. You are a sentient living being because it is GOD SHARING HIS LIFE WITH YOU AS “YOU”. You are a gift He created for Mother Zion. You cannot and will not be destroyed despite all the hopes and wishes of lying devils and blind human preachers. But you will be REMOVED from hell and BEAMED UPSTAIRS to Paradise like all men before us as soon as Jesus gets to call your TRUE NAME!
Ecclesiastes 3:14 I know that, whatsoever God doeth, it shall be for ever: nothing can be put to it, nor any thing taken from it: and God doeth it, that men should fear before him.
So when we look again at the word, “existentialism”, and apply it to Creator-God, we can now see Father-God’s “unique position as a self-determining agent responsible for the authenticity of his or her choices”. Because of “I AM”, WE ARE immortal forever.
II Esdras 6:1. And He said to me, 'Think of the beginning of this earth: the gates of the world had not yet been set up; no winds 2 gathered and blew, no thunder pealed, no lightning flashed; the foundations 3 of paradise were not yet laid, nor were its fair flowers there to see; the powers that move the stars were not established, nor the countless hosts of 4 angels assembled, nor the vast tracts of air setup on high; the divisions of the firmaments had not received their names. Zion had not yet been chosen 5 as God's own footstool; the present age had not been planned; the schemes of its sinners had not yet been outlawed, nor had God's seal yet been set on 6 those who have stored up a treasure of fidelity. Then did I think my thought; and the whole world was created through me and through me alone. In the same way, through me and through me alone the end shall come.'
II Esdras 7:1 When I had finished speaking, the same angel was sent to me as on the 2 previous nights. He said to me, 'Rise to your feet, Ezra, and listen to the 3 message I have come to give you.' 'Speak, my lord', I said. He said to me: 'Imagine a sea set in a vast open space, spreading far 4 5 and wide, but the entrance to it narrow like the gorge of a river. If anyone is determined to reach this sea, whether to set eyes on it or to gain command of it, he cannot arrive at its open waters except through the narrow gorge 6 Or again, imagine a city built in a plain, a city full of everything you can 7 desire, but the entrance to it narrow and steep, with fire to the right and 8 deep water to the left. There is only the one path, between the fire and the 9 water; and that is only wide enough for one man at a time. If some man has been given this city as a legacy, how can he take possession of his inheritance 10 except by passing through these dangerous approaches?' 'That is the only way, my lord', I agreed. 11 He said to me: 'Such is the lot of Israel. It was for Israel that I made the world, and when Adam transgressed my decrees the creation came under 12 judgement. The entrances to this world were made narrow, painful, and 13 arduous, few and evil, full of perils and grinding hardship. But the entrances 14 to the greater world are broad and safe, and lead to immortality. All men must therefore enter this narrow and futile existence; otherwise they can 15 never attain the blessings in store.
Secrets of Enoch 33:3 And now, Enoch, all that I have told thee, all that thou hast understood, all that thou hast seen of heavenly things, all that thou hast seen on earth, and all that I have written in books by my great wisdom, all these things I have devised and created from the uppermost foundation to 4 the lower and to the end, and there is no counselor nor inheritor to my creations. I am self-eternal, not made with hands, and without change, My thought is my counsellor, my wisdom and my word are made, and my eyes observe all things how they stand here and tremble with terror. If I turn away my face, then all things will be destroyed. 5 And apply thy mind, Enoch, and know him who is speaking to thee, and take thou the books which thou thyself hast written. 6 And I give thee Samuil and Raguil, who led thee up, and the books, and go down to earth, and tell thy sons all that I have told thee, and all that thou hast seen, from the lower heaven up to my throne, and all the troops. 7 For I created all forces, and there is none that resisteth me or that does not subject himself to me. For all subject themselves to my monarchy, and labour for my sole rule.
Ode of Solomon 8:4 Rise up, and stand erect, ye who sometime were brought low: 5 Tell forth ye who were in silence, that your mouth hath been opened. 6 Ye, therefore, that were despised be henceforth lifted up, because your righteousness hath been exalted. 7 For the right hand of the Lord is with you: and He is your helper: 8. And peace was prepared for you, before ever your war was. 9. Hear the word of truth, and receive the knowledge of the Most High. 10 Your flesh has not known what I am saying to you: neither have your hearts known what I am showing to you. 11 Keep. my secret, ye who are kept by it. l2 Keep my faith, ye who are kept by it. l3 And understand my knowledge, ye who know me in truth, 14 Love me with affection, ye who love! 15 For I do not turn away my face from them that are mine; 16 For I know them and before they came into being I took knowledge of them, and on their faces I set my seal: 17 I fashioned their members: my own breasts I prepared for them, that they might drink my holy milk and live thereby 18 I took pleasure in them and am not ashamed of them: 19 For my workmanship are they and the strength of my thoughts:
The following excerpt is taken from the Acts of John, New Testament Apocrypha by Hennecke- Schneemelcher, Vol. II, Westminster Press.
97. After the Lord had so danced with us, my beloved, he went out. And we were like men amazed or fast asleep, and we fled this way and that. And so I saw him suffer, and did not wait by his suffering, but fled to the Mount of Olives and wept at what had come to pass. And when he was hung (upon the Cross) on Friday, at the sixth hour of the day there came a darkness over the whole earth. And my Lord stood in the middle of the cave and gave light to it and said, 'John, for the people below in Jerusalem I am being crucified and pierced with lances and reeds and given vinegar and gall to drink. But to you I am speaking, and listen to what I speak. I put into your mind to come up to this mountain so that you may hear what a disciple should learn from his teacher and a man from God.'
98. And when he had said this he showed me a Cross of Light firmly fixed, and around the Cross a great crowd, which had no single form; and in it (the Cross) was one form and the same likeness. And I saw the Lord himself above the Cross, having no shape but only a kind of voice; yet not that voice which we knew, but one that was sweet and gentle and truly (the voice) of God, which said to me, 'John, there must (be) one man (to) hear these things from me; for I need one who is ready to hear. This Cross of Light is sometimes called Logos by me for your sakes, sometimes mind, sometimes Jesus, sometimes Christ, sometimes a door, sometimes a way, sometimes bread, sometimes seed, sometimes resurrection, sometimes Son, sometimes Father, sometimes Spirit, sometimes life, sometimes truth, sometimes faith, sometimes grace; *and so* (it is called) for men's sake. But what it truly is, as known in *itself* and spoken to us, (is this): it is the distinction of all things, and the *strong uplifting* of *what is firmly fixed* out of what is unstable, and the harmony of wisdom, being wisdom in harmony (?). But there are places on the right and on the left, powers, authorities, principalities and demons, activities, threatenings, passions, devils, Satan and the inferior root *from which* the nature of transient things proceeded.
99. This Cross then (is that) which has united all things by the word and which has separated off what is transitory and inferior, which has also *compacted* all things into one. But this is not that wooden Cross which you shall see when you go down from here; nor am I the (man) who is on the Cross, (I) whom now you do not see but only hear (my) voice. I was taken to be what I am not, I who am not what for many others I was; but what they will say of me is mean and unworthy of me. Since then the place of (my?) rest is neither (to be) seen nor told, much more shall I, the Lord of this (place), be neither seen nor told.
100. The multitude around the Cross that is not of one form is the inferior nature. And those whom you saw in the Cross, even if they have not (yet) one form -not every member of him who has come down has yet been gathered together. But when *human* nature is taken up, and the race that comes to me and obeys my voice, then *he who* now *hears* me shall be united *with this* (race) and shall no longer be what he now is, but (shall be) above them as I am now. For so long as you do not call yourself mine, I am not what I am; but if you hear me, you also as hearer *shall be* as I am, and I shall be what I was, when you* (are) as I am with myself; for from *me* you are what I am.(?) Therefore ignore the many and despise those who are outside the mystery; for you must know that I am wholly with the Father, and the Father with me.
101. So then I have suffered none of those things which they will say of me; even that suffering which I showed to you and to the rest in my dance, I will that it be called a mystery. For what you *are*, that I have shown you, (as) you see; but what I am is known to me alone, and no one else. *Let me* have what is mine; what is yours *you must see* through me; but me *you must see* truly -not that which I am, (as) I said, but that which you, as (my) kinsman, *are able* to know. You hear that I suffered, yet I suffered not; and that I suffered not, yet I did suffer; and that I was pierced, yet I was not wounded; that I was hanged, yet I was not hanged; that blood *flowed* from me, yet it did not flow; and, in a word, that what they say of me, I did not endure, but what they do not say, those things I did suffer. Now what these are, I secretly show you*; for I know that you will understand. You must know me, then, as the *torment* of the Logos, the *piercing* of the Logos, the blood of the Logos, the wounding of the Logos, the fastening of the Logos, the death of the Logos. And so I speak, discarding the man(hood). The first then (that) you must know (is) the Logos; then you shall know the Lord, and thirdly the man, and what he has suffered.'
Father-God EXISTS as the Living One! He has “the individual's unique position as a self-determining agent responsible for the authenticity of his or her (our) choices”. He is responsible for all that has happened and will happen to His creations. Your life began on His drawing board (in his mind). We are as old as when those thoughts came to be in His mind. What He began, He has every intention of bringing it forth to perfection, mature angelic glory and beauty!
II Esdras 2:37 Be ready to receive the rewards of the kingdom; for light perpetual 36 will shine upon you for ever and ever. Flee from the shadow of this world and receive the joy and splendour that await you. I bear witness openly to 37 my Saviour. It is he whom the Lord has appointed; receive him and be joyful, giving thanks to the One who has summoned you to the heavenly 38 realms. Rise, stand up, and see the whole company of those who bear the 39 Lord's mark and sit at his table. They have moved out of the shadow of this 40 world and have received shining robes from the Lord. Receive, O Zion your full number, and close the roll of those arrayed in white who have 41 faithfully kept the law of the Lord. The number of your sons whom you so long desired is now complete. Pray that the Lord's kingdom may come, so that your people, whom he summoned when the world began, may be set apart as his own.